*by bridesmaid I mean supportive friend One of the problems with not showing my struggles is that after a while, everyone thinks I’m fine. There are a handful of friends and family who know I’m not. I put on a happy face, and I tell people everything is okay because I don’t like being a … More Always the bridesmaid* never the bride…?
A better start to the day. Last night, I was able to relax and sleep at a normal time (aka 1 AM instead of my usual 3 AM). And I remembered a book was released that I have been waiting for. The Wedding Party by Jasmine Guillory! I know. The girl who blogs about her … More New Books, Classes, and a Laptop…?
But that same pain reminds me that what we shared was real. Because isn’t that what love is? Giving yourself to someone. Giving them the power to hurt you and trusting they don’t. … More Love hurts.
It’s hard to fight for something when the other person doesn’t care. It’s hard not to question your worth when you are tossed aside every other day. It’s hard not to question if you will ever be loved again. You were so close to marriage—to starting a new life with someone. That someone was your … More What Am I Fighting For?
Pathetic. That’s what she is. He told her he’s done with her. He told her he never loved her. It was all lies. What does she do? She turns her phone on Loud and waits for him to come back. He’s always come back. She’s done nothing wrong. She’s supported him as much as she … More Pathetic.
I have somewhere to put the thoughts instead of isolating them in my head where I can overthink for months. It helps that I truly enjoy writing. Sitting down with an iced coffee and something to write with brings me so much happiness. … More In my head
Happy Friday, everyone! We’ve made it to the end of the week. My week started out really rough. I’ll be honest. Some days, I didn’t think I would make it out of bed. Wednesday onwards, I’ve been feeling better and better. I’ve been more motivated. I don’t feel like I’m in a neverending pit of … More Fancy Dinner!
He still hasn’t realized it, but his actions would affect her for the rest of her life. Would she trust again? Maybe in a few years. Maybe after letting a few good ones go because she could never really believe they’d want to be with her. Would she be celebrating her 20th wedding anniversary thinking, … More Her Life Has Changed
That’s the only explanation. Unwanted by those supposed to love me most. I must be defective. They must see something fundamentally wrong with me. Relinquished by my birth family. Left shortly before my wedding. Good people don’t have this happen to them, do they? I’m not really sure anymore. It seems like everyone is struggling … More Am I Broken?
Everyone wants to convince the world that their lives are perfect. You do it. I do it. Your family does it. We all do it. Even on my other blogging platforms where I talk about struggles going on in my life, I make a point to say that I am moving forward… I’m working hard… … More What’s A Perfect Life?