Love hurts.

But that same pain reminds me that what we shared was real. Because isn’t that what love is? Giving yourself to someone. Giving them the power to hurt you and trusting they don’t. … More Love hurts.

What Am I Fighting For?

It’s hard to fight for something when the other person doesn’t care. It’s hard not to question your worth when you are tossed aside every other day. It’s hard not to question if you will ever be loved again. You were so close to marriage—to starting a new life with someone. That someone was your … More What Am I Fighting For?

Pathetic.

Pathetic. That’s what she is. He told her he’s done with her. He told her he never loved her. It was all lies. What does she do? She turns her phone on Loud and waits for him to come back. He’s always come back. She’s done nothing wrong. She’s supported him as much as she … More Pathetic.

In my head

I have somewhere to put the thoughts instead of isolating them in my head where I can overthink for months. It helps that I truly enjoy writing. Sitting down with an iced coffee and something to write with brings me so much happiness. … More In my head

Fancy Dinner!

Happy Friday, everyone! We’ve made it to the end of the week. My week started out really rough. I’ll be honest. Some days, I didn’t think I would make it out of bed. Wednesday onwards, I’ve been feeling better and better. I’ve been more motivated. I don’t feel like I’m in a neverending pit of … More Fancy Dinner!

Her Life Has Changed

He still hasn’t realized it, but his actions would affect her for the rest of her life. Would she trust again? Maybe in a few years. Maybe after letting a few good ones go because she could never really believe they’d want to be with her. Would she be celebrating her 20th wedding anniversary thinking, … More Her Life Has Changed

Am I Broken?

I must be broken. That’s the only explanation. Unwanted by those supposed to love me most. I must be defective. They must see something fundamentally wrong with me. Relinquished by my birth family. Left shortly before my wedding. Good people don’t have this happen to them, do they? I’m not really sure anymore. It seems … More Am I Broken?

Shhhh….

It can be terrifying signing yourself up for graduate school. My PhD program is 5-6 years of intense work and multiple hurdles you must get through. Know that the people in your program are going through the exact same thing. There are mental health resources on campus that you can seek out. Not all departments advertise this. Find it for yourself. Don’t let yourself fall into the trap I did. Your situation doesn’t have to be permanent. … More Shhhh….